Hi good people ₍ᐢ. ̫.ᐢ₎
Today I’m writing to you from my kitchen table. We have a new big beautiful table and coming here feels like going to a cafe. You see, I tried to go to a cafe today but since this is Iceland on a saturday, it was close… yay for the baristas ⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂)⸝♡ nheey for me…
This is not the first time I’ve been slapped in the face by reality lately, but I must smile at these things. Trigger warning: none of the things I’ll list today are problems, but bare with me and have some fun while you’re here ₍ᐢ. .ᐢ₎ ₊˚⊹♡
I drove home and sat at our kitchen table, I put a movie playing in the background which makes for the perfect background sound and ordered a hot chocolate ⋆☕︎ ˖
Which means I made myself a good old Nesquick!
Today I want to write to you about how
I’m facing reality with a smile 𓍯𓂃𓏧♡
At the beginning of this year I made a habit tracker that I’ve been diligently keeping up to date. Here is the chart of February:
I spent the most of my time on things that either bring me money or make me a better artist. But it was not always like this… (╥﹏╥)
Before, I wanted to do all things at once! I wanted it all very fast. I was postponing beautiful hikes because ‘‘I have no time for that, I have to become an artist’’
I was using the present as a stepping stone to achieve my ideal future and as a result I was achieving nothing but stress. Since I can’t be creative under stress, instead of drawing I was doing admin work: post on social media for example.
I thought that time was more forgiving than it actually is.
By the end of January I looked back on my habit tracker and learned that essentially I did only two things a day. And they were the most useless and embarrassing things of all… I was either on instagram, or recording videos for my wannabe youtube channel about comic books (⸝⸝⸝O﹏ O⸝⸝⸝) I make no money from these platforms…
The good thing about my youtube project about comic books called Reading Slump is that, while making research for my videos, I found out about the instagram page of my current favourite author. He is only posting about one thing: his comic.
He doesn’t have a big audience but who cares, he has published books and they are amazing things that I love reading.
So I made it my mission to do only one thing a day in February, and just like him, I was determined to draw more.
After a month I have 12 pages of a comic book.
They are not finished, or perfect, but they are done ( ◡̀_◡́)ᕤ
I post these pages on my instagram and even though I don’t have a wide audience, those who see the pages always leave a kind comment behind (*ᴗ͈ˬᴗ͈)ꕤ*.ﾟ
So, I still post drawings, I still make videos for youtube and I still blog, look at me blogging right now. But these are not my priorities. My priority is my comic book and I use these platforms to talk about what I created instead of creating to have something to post about…
And upon this slap of reality, I smile
I meant to make a better post but is time to shut the computer down and have a nice evening reading a book. Before, I would stress about this not being the perfect post, I’d save it to finish it tomorrow, I’d be grumpy and overthink it during dinner…
But now I choose to practice patience. Leave it has it is. I assigned only one day a month to blog here, and one day is the time this blog will get 𓇢𓆸
I love everything about your post.
"I use these platforms to talk about what I created instead of creating to have something to post about…" oufff yess